Hope you had the(Ryan//Roommates)time of your life

[dymetrialexander]

Dymetri sat on his bed, knees drawn to his chest. He stared at the threads of his sheets, small tears rolling down and out of his eyes. He gently picked at the fabric with his nails. That was the second he made the decision. He rolled over onto his stomach and reached under his pillow, pulling out a notebook and a pencil. Bright blue eyes glanced at his room-mate, Choi, who seemed to be to busy chatting online to be bothered with him. His eyes adverted to the blue swirls on the cover of the note-book. Dymetri’s shaky hands pulled open the cover of the notebook, pulling the razor from the crevice and slipping it into his pocket. He then switched to the next clear page. He stared at it, face blank and empty. He took a deep breath and took the mechanical pencil in his left hand and clicked it. Dymetri wrote quick, the room filled with the sounds of pencil against paper.

”Dear everyone,
This is stupid and selfish, right? I’m sorry. I just can’t take it anymore. I want you to know that I love you all very dearly. I know I’m being selfish. A permanent solution to a temporary problem, oui? I’m stupid so, go ahead at tell me that.

Ryan~ I love you. Ich liebe dich. Me Amor Tu. J’taime. Watashi wa anata o aishite. I don’t know any other language to tell you “I love you” in. I ♥ you. Don’t ever forget that. I need you to remember me. Now, don’t do anything stupid. I suppose someone is reading this to you. Sorry, I can’t write braille. I was going to learn, for you. Guess, I won’t now, huh? Don’t cry. Sorry I lied about something important, forgive me?

Corwin~ You know what you did. I don’t see why you can’t just accept me the way I am. Grow up.
Siblings~ I love you guys. I’ll say ‘hi’ to mom and dad for you guys.

Hina~ Smile, you’re pretty. You’re awesome and things will get better. Spend the year the best you can, okay? Your mother loves you, even if she doesn’t show it. And your hair is very pretty.

Fidel~ Fidel, my man! You’re awesome. Not to mention, warm. Keep up the trouble, for me? I like your hats. Go kayaking down an escalator again?

Choi and Mel~ I love you guys. Best room-mates ever. Mel, keep your head up, Aoi and Zander both love you. Choi, you’re the best cuddle-buddy I ever had, you sexy man panda you.

Zander~ Mel and Aoi love you. Remember that. You’re the best friend I ever had and sorry it had to end this way.

So, I guess that’s the end of my message. Sad part is, my last words will be “I’m gonna go take a shower.”

Dymetri sat his pencil to the side and tore the page roughly from the book, the seams tearing with it. He sat the paper with font scribbled over it on his pillow and returned his book and pencil to their natural spots. Dymetri placed his bare feet on the floor and stepped past Choi. ”I’m gonna go take a shower” he sighed ”good bye.” he added. Dymetri stepped into the bathroom, closing the door. He leaned against the door and took a deep breath. He already made up his mind and wasn’t going to change it. He took a few quiet steps towards the sink. Glancing up at the mirror, he caught the sorrow in his eyes. He saw what no one else did. Dymi reached into his pocket and pulled out the shiny and sharp silver object. He sat it down on tiled counter. He stared at himself in the mirror, he analyzed ever piece of his face. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he rolled up his sleeves and gripped the piece of metal in his left hand. He ran his fingers through his hair with his free hand and then flipped his arm so his hand laid palm up. His, now silver, eyes looked at the bright blue vein pushing at the skin.


Dymetri gulped down his tears and fears. Placing the blade to the vein, a small sadistic grin played at his lips. His eyes fading to a green-blue. He pressed the blade harder and harder against the flesh of his wrist. Ruby red droplets pushed their way out the harder he pushed. Soon his arm was covered in blood, the vein emptying into the white porcelain sink. His breath got shallow. He switched hands, red fingerprints marking themselves on the dull end of the razor. He repeated with his left wrist. Dymetri’s wrists drizzled and leaked the crimson blood. He started to feel light headed. A smile hit his lips. He was finally leaving the life he hated. Dymi felt his brain losing thought. It happened faster than he expected. He laid on his stomach. His brain fading to a black. The last taste he had was the blood filling the floor, around his face and filling his mouth.

Word Count: 847
Wearing: this
Notes: Sorry it sucks badly
Lyrics: Good Riddance - Green Day

[ryan]

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Ryan sat on his bed waiting for something interesting to happen in the chat. He thought it was never going to be. He hadn’t heard from Dymetri in a couple days. He was starting to get worried; although it has only been a couple days. But they usually talked on the chat and he hasn’t been on. So Ryan was starting to get really worried about him. He hoped everything was okay and if there wasn’t Ryan thought that Dymetri would come and talk to him. But he also guessed Dymetri didn’t trust him that well to open up. Ryan had open up to him; he told him all his problems that were going on. About his father killing his dog out of anger; that his parents were always fighting and was worried about his little sister growing up like that. About his brother hating his father; because he wouldn’t accept Aaron for who he was; the partying, bisexual singer, who loved to have a good time.

Ryan was lying on his back; he didn’t know why but when he was bored he just always laid on his back. Even though it was an uncomfortable position for him to lay down. He heard the computer talk to him; or rather tell him what was being said in the chat. The voice was so annoying to listen to. In ways he would rather listen to nails on a chalk board than this voice any day; and that’s saying a lot with Ryan. For he was blind so his hearing was more sensitive, than others who do have eye sight. Ryan was playing with one of the bondage straps on his jeans. Yes they were woman’s jeans he wouldn’t deny that; or well to the right person he wouldn’t. If you’re asking who the right person is now; there is a list. Dymetri his boyfriend would be the first one on the list, Hina the second (Ryan thought she was to die for; being so cute and everything), Choi the third, and Fidel the fourth and last or maybe Fidel third and Choi fourth. It didn’t really matter. But those are all the people he would call his friend though Dymetri would have a boy in front of his title; with Hina being best before hers. If you are confused at this point; Dymetri = boyfriend, Hina = best friend.


Now back to what he was wearing. Ryan had on black jeans, a button up shirt that was on him but not buttoned up at all, sort of high top sneakers, a scarf, and some jewelry. Ryan heard the voice say something; apparently Dymetri’s brother had asked him something. Ryan answered and then he answered asking if he could go check up on Dymetri. Ryan didn’t mind doing so; he would love to hear Dymetri’s voice and it would ease his mind knowing that Dymetri was okay. Ryan sat up and sighed. Ivy; his dog was sleeping on his pillows. He could hear her breath; he gotten so used to the different breathing she made when she was awake and sleeping so he knew which on was which. Ryan smiled; he would let her sleep there was no reason for to wake her up. Ryan knew the way to his boyfriend’s dorm by heart. Not to mention the little cat shifter didn’t like dogs. Ryan stood up and walked to the door. He left his dorm and walked to Dymetri’s. He was now in front of the door that went to Dymetri’s dorm. He knocked on the door a couple times and waited. While he waited he buttoned up his shirt.

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